Well...that's how I felt today.
It started at 3:45 a.m., when my sweet husband, drove away...again...for another long trip. My heart aches at the thought of yet another separation for our family. I try to be thankful and appreciative for God's provision for our family. He is so GOOD. If you've ever wondered...He answers prayers! It was just 4 short years ago that we were desperate for Frank to find a good job. We were living off of credit cards and didn't even have our own home. Boy howdy does he answer prayers! Now Frank has a rockin' job...the caveat....he's never home!
I feel like my life is running full speed ahead and I've missed the boat!
I don't want to grumble and complain, truly I don't. I want to be grateful.
But when I'm not the Mom I want to be, because I'm over tasked,
or I'm not the witness I want to be, because I'm over tasked....
or I'm not the ME I want to be...
you guessed it....
BECAUSE I'm over tasked....
I'm miserable.
I was talking to a dear friend on the phone today who suggested I reevaluate my life and cut some things out. I thought about that for a while and realized that I really don't have anything I do for ME. It's all for my family, my children, my church. What do I cut out? I can't do it all...I'm doing the work of two parents all by myself; and I'm trying to do it perfectly....and I'm failing!
What keeps me going?
Recently God spoke to us and He has sent a blessing of such magnitude that we cannot even fathom the weight of it's goodness.
A couple of months ago I was blessed to start a business selling children's books. My supervisor and I had a charity book fair at a local beach resort and our local children's shelter was the recipient of the free books. By chance, or shall I say by God's Grace, I met a young man who will soon become a part of our family. It is truly amazing how He orchestrates our lives, how He shapes and molds us as His own ....and how He teaches us to give just a little more of ourselves for others. It's amazing how easy it is to do when it's God-driven and not of our own selfish desires.
WOW....is all I can say!
I am so excited about the changes that lie ahead for our family. I hope that we can bring peace and happiness to our new son and give him the life he has always deserved, for he was created in His image and in MY opinion, deserves the very best of everything. I only hope we can prove ourselves worthy of his love as his family and that he will have us. Whatever happens, I know it will be okay....as I like to say....
It's a God Thing !
Philippians 2:5-9
New International Version (NIV)
5 In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus:
6 Who, being in very nature[a] God,
did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage;
7 rather, he made himself nothing
by taking the very nature[b] of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
8 And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself
by becoming obedient to death—
even death on a cross!
did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage;
7 rather, he made himself nothing
by taking the very nature[b] of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
8 And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself
by becoming obedient to death—
even death on a cross!
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| Kimberly, Terry, Frank, Jagger Reese & Addie Kate |
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| Three Monkey's after dinner at Capt. Anderson's |
