I didn't realize the impact this would have on my day-to-day life! It was two years ago this July that I met him....he was a haggard looking teenager...with not a lot of options.
I fell in love with him INSTANTLY! I should have known this would be much harder than I'd imagined!
It took Terry almost 5 days to arrive at his destination of Lackland AFB, TX.
RIDICULOUS!
Being retired military....we can certainly relate....hurry up and wait! I truly thought the transition was going to kill me! Just knowing that he was out in the world...in transit....*sigh*
But....
He finally arrived at 2 a.m. on Friday morning and all was right with the world.....
.....I thought....
I've received two phone calls....one to tell me he arrived okay and the other to relay his mailing address. He called me while I was at a school setting up a book fair....you know? .....Cause life goes on?
NOT!
I couldn't hear him very well and jacked the address all up. So I spent the better part of the next evening trying to locate the correct address and in my delirious exhaustion I sent it via message to several people....WRONG....3 times!!!! ugh
I know they must have thought I'd been drinkin' again.....
......not yet!
So yesterday, as I'm trying to get on with my daily routine and a very busy work week....I'm attempting to reconcile a reading incentive program....you know......thousands of dollars and thousands of reading minutes....
During that time...
~ the dog pukes on the floor....
~ the kids start fighting.....
~ battles over school work...that would be Jagger Reese
~ Addie Kate just has to have a container of peaches which EXPLODE on me when I open them....
.....*sigh*
.....yup....time to pull out the booze...
....wait....it's only 10:30....in the morning !!! Oish!
In lieu of drinking I decided that laughter truly is the best medicine so I started laughing....HYSTERICALLY....like an idiot...
....the kids were looking at me as if I had truly lost my mind, which at this point would have been preferable to what I was experiencing!
So.....
I completed my work...and looked around at the wreck of a house of mine, without question realizing why we have all been sneezing our heads off....could be the fur ball tumbleweeds in every corner the size of beanbags.....could be the inch of dust that covers every surface in the house.....and did I mention the petrified frog I found on the floor in the living room ????? ......I got nothin'
is this a construction zone????
....nope...just a mom in a funk.
So I determined that I needed to figure out why this has hit me so hard.
I realized that along with my son's departure...was also the departure of a friend....he took with him adult conversation in my husbands constant absence....he ushered away my "someone" to laugh with over all of the funnies my kids have on a day-to-day basis..... stole my errand boy who ran to the store for the little things I ALWAYS forget.....robbed me of the one who investigated things that go bump in the night.....
oh....and don't forget the mother's heart that he carried with him as he waved goodbye to start a new life adventure.
I sure could use some prayer...for anyone who is reading this....I would covet those prayers....as I am struggling with this...more than a mother should I'm sure....or maybe I'm just more vocal.....
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.
John 14:27 (ESV)
